Sunday, July 10, 2011

Why, I Love my community.

After doing ten years in prison. After using drugs on and off for the last 8 years. after working as a human service worker for 10 years,in every other field. Substance abuse counseling, nurses aide, personal assistant and just working. I came to the conclusion that my choice to do nothing is not good at all. Their has always been someone on this road telling me to do better:Get your life together, Kevin. Some said it loud without knowing me at all. My grandmother put time in with me. The program I went into in 1999 did more than there share helping me understand my addiction. The senior counselor there, that wonderful Spanish man Mr.Perez: he was the father I never had. He said' Kevin becoming a counselor wont save you from your addiction. You will have to save yourself.
I heard that on a deep level and it became a place I couldn't get around.
Recently, my sister was killed saving my nephews life( wake up call). First I was crying for her day after day. My crying became sobbing and I realized that I was crying for her, I was crying for me. I had become my worst image of myself back to drinking and walking the streets acting out my best ignorance.The women I was living with had faith in me and I couldn't believe how much love she had for me. She would pray for me while I sleep and took me to church with her. Praying with me hour after hour. What else did I need to convince me that its my turn to give back. Stop being so selfish, share, give more than you take. Stop looking for a rose garden. Stop asking for things you didn't work for. Wasn't it Malcolm X that said" you are either a part of the solution or part of the problem. Today, I am one man standing up. To be a helper and not a sorry son of ignorance. Its not because my demons are after me its because I'm sick and tired of my own weak voice. I went though all this stuff to miss the point, no, I am a strong man and this means I must serve my family and my community. The chains of violence have taken the best part of me, but I'm not going to give up so easy. I have my health and strength and I'm giving back with every breath I take. I have loss family and friends to this thing called ignorance. I have taken advantage of those that love me by not considering them.I will leave something behind for someone else to carry on if not only a few works of encouragement.


  1. Thank you for visiting my blog. I know God had big plans for you too and HE is working on it, it is encouraging to know that even when you are in the storm you are still closer to God.


  2. Great post I love my community for many reasons too.

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    Bradley Nordstrom

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  4. Beautiful declaration of love and courage. May the Lord continue to use your open heart for goodness and as a testament that a person can turn to Him and find strength to rebuild. My deepest sympathy in the loss of your sister. From your post she was your navigator and support system. May you continue seeking God as your compass. I imagine your sister is watching over you now as your angel :)

    Thank you for your recent comment on my blog. God Bless you!